Why I refuse to be ashamed of my mental health / illness

Mental Health Personal

I know many of us around the world suffer with illnesses and disabilities: both conspicuous and invisible. Sometimes these conditions take control of your time, limit our everyday abilities and diminish our quality of life. The only important thing in these instances to remember is to always keep fighting: do not become the victim to be pitied, be the warrior who braves on no matter what is thrown at you.

I don’t feel the need to mention it often nowadays, but I’m among those of you who are battling in this instance.

Friends and family will know that I suffer from a chronic pain condition (which brings along fatigue/exhaustion as a wonderful companion and recurrent migraines), manic depression and an anxiety disorder.  Quite frankly these things can quite literally both control and destroy my life.

If you saw me on the street, you would probably not assume I was in any way afflicted – and that is how I like to keep it. Not because I am ashamed of my problems, but because I have embraced them.

Mental health in both the past and present has become a stigma; an embarrassing taboo that should not be spoken aloud. Althought there are many of us who fight to destroy that image and be proud of who we are, many persons still share the opinion that feeling depressed is humiliating and you shouldn’t ever tell someone how twisted your inner thoughts really are. That, if you suffer from a mental problem or invisible illness you are weak. You cannot cope. You are broken. You are damaged. 

I do not share in this naive opinion, because every day I fight against invisible demons to be here, still standing, still speaking and still free. It hasn’t been an easy journey, but I’m alive and for that I am thankful.

I refuse to feel ashamed for fighting for my life.

I refuse to feel weak because I am battling invisible issues.

I refuse to feel broken because my brain doesn’t work the same way yours does.

And I most certainly will never feel weak or victimized because I have mental or physical health differences.

You have to learn to see, these “problems”, these illnesses are a part of you. No matter whether big or small, they are not only a contributing factor of making you into the person you are today – but they are continually strengthening you to become amazingly strong.

Most importantly, I will not be ashamed of something that is a part of me.

You may struggle more than some and less than others, but this does not mean you should ever feel guilt for things that are out of your control: things that are a part of you.

Anyone who cannot love you for who you are, including these problems, does not deserve to be in your life. Anyone who can only degrade you because of your problems SHOULD NOT be in your life. And if you are fighting a battle, you are immensely strong and capable. Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise. You are beautiful because you are you, unique you. The one in 7 billion.

Embrace it.

Love yourself, your flaws and issues are a part of you, just never lose yourself in the confusion. Always remember who you are and what you believe. You are NOT DAMAGED, you are simply different. And there is nothing wrong with that.

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